in love and war
one must be like water and
rush into the void
left by loss
and regret

rchongson
original
with some modification.

i miss you!!

Yes!

"come like the wind
go like the lightning"

Sun Tzu

If so,
so what! Please
don't be afraid to
tell me all about
how you did that
to me
here.

when did you do it here?
Before, drowning in it.
After, It's done
you come with me.
yes
yes you do
this
this love
Please, come with me.

Hey, yes I'm saying
yes.
so, don't be afraid to
feel, yes.
oh, before or after
you know
what I want
to do
yes, come
yes, you have to
come with me.
why?
because I love it.
because this love did it.
It tastes like you
sweet, clever

oh, yes
I love it.
come with me.
You did it to me.
Thank You!
Oh, thank you.

play me

play me
with me
top
bottom
oh, fuck it
LISTEN
to
Cowbell- Tapes n' Tapes
Reach that place- sleepwalk circus
Mayonnaise- smashing pumpkins
Dito Tayo Sa Dilim- Pedicab
Out of Control- She wants revenge
Citrus- the hold steady

listen, are you listening?

note on forehead

there's a note
on my forehead
it reads:
don't worry
because worry
lines are ugly

there's a note
on my chest
it sings:
"to-ta-touch me
I wanna be Diirrty."

there's a note
on inner thigh
it reads:
please, yes
please. I say yes! PLEASE!

there's a sign
on my lips
that reads:
Ohhhh, yes. that's right.
you're all mine
all mine.

love

etc.

I had dream
that I don't want to talk about.
It involved the following:
shotguns
long hair
ghosts
assholes
and love going away
on vacation or something

you know
what they say?
when love's away
the stranger will play.

I think I am
paranoid.
etc

coffee research.

"You and your friends don't know shit about women. Why talk to them like that? When you can see they don't like it? If I want to look beautiful, I do it for me"

oh and this...

Hassan: I just got stung by a lousy mosquito. These neighborhoods are dangerous. Lagos is safer. What' your name?
Sophie: Sohpie
Hassan: I'd give you my card but I have none left. Too bad! Sophie, fancy a cup of coffee? Go on! Can I massage your feet?
Sophie: Why would I let you?
Hassan: Because they hurt.
Sophie: They do?
Hassan: You were running in my dreams all night.... Please have coffee with me.

and

I have self control.

like...

we are all connected in the same way that
Faulkner.
Murakami.
the talking heads.
burning down the house.
are all connected.

these connections like paintings in a gallery
like quotations

read:
I'd be able to conduct, (a), a life with my right hand and, (b), a life with my left. Not that it matters much. It's like doughnut holes. Whether you take a doughnut hole as a blank space or as an entity unto itself is a purely metaphysical question and does not affect the taste of the doughnut.

AND AS LONG AS I KNEW THE WORLD WAS STILL IN MOTION. I KNEW I EXISTED.
Murakami "A Wild Sheep Chase"




Exist with me.
we'll belong to each other.
we'll burn
re-grow
re-work, be re-born, re-open
then, close
then burn
then we'll
fall into it
burst into
space
stick, submerge
MERGE into one
gigantic universe
of cells
dying
regenerating
separating
splicing
clotting
then finally
evaporating
into porous
fragments of ourselves

then
we'll turn into water
we'll drink our spirits up
in a large cup
filled up to the
brim
with curiosity
and newness


New, we are
anew
afresh
and in love.

stop asking questions! I know what I am doing.

My mom called and asked about my article today. I said
"Mom it's not my article any more. I've sold it."
She didn't get it. She said,

"Oh, if this is all about selling out and all of that BS. you can forget about it. We breathe the same air. You sold out when you were born."

"WHAT?" I said, "There's static." I hung up only to call her back. "Mom, I love you"
"I know honey"
"And I miss you"
"I know honey"
"And I know how what you mean"
"About what, honey?"
"About selling out"
"Oh, I didn't mean to offend you"
"No, It's a shit article anyway"
"I don't like you attitude"
"I know"
"Go do some yoga, or have a glass of wine."
"Okay. Oh, and Mom I've been thinking about July when I come visit"
"yeah and?"
"And, I want to sleep in the basement."
The internet cut out. END CONVO HERE!